
It was my worst nightmare.
As a reporter, I carry a pager -- yeah, I know it sounds old-fashioned -- but I carry what is known as the "Breaking News Network" pager. It beeps or buzzes as information is entered by a group of people who listen to police scanners.
The pager can come in handy when alerting reporters to a serious accident on a major highway, a fatal shooting or a wayward bear taking a stroll through the suburbs.
But this morning around 10:30 a.m. the pager showed me something I never wanted to see.
The pager displayed: "Teaneck > *Working Fire*> 537 Chestnut Pl > Fire is in the 1st floor of a private dwelling."
My mouth dropped. My heart raced. And I grabbed my camera and left the office as quickly as I could. I called my mom to alert her that there was a fire on our block.
I was hoping that she was home. But she was not.
I had a feeling that the pager was inaccurate and that the fire was actually at my house -- which is 53X Chestnut Place (not 537). When I arrived I saw the street was blocked off. I asked the police officer where the fire was located and he pointed in the direction toward my house.
I raced around the corner and my worse nightmare came true.
My house was on fire.
My twin brother -- who is mentally challenged -- was home alone. Was he OK?
I heard my neighbor yellilng to me, "Michael, Anthony is over here. He's OK."
But my cat of 13-years was also inside the house. Did she make it out? I was assured by firefighters that cats usually escape and run outside. Unfortunately, Freddi did not. She died from smoke inhalation. I watched as the firefighters carried her out in a comforter that she always slept on.
I couldn't hold the tears.
My house was filled with smoke and although the flames were contained to the kitchen area, the damage had been done.
I couldn't believe this was happening just a day before Thanksgiving.
The house was declared uninhabitable and it would probably take months to repair the damage. It seemed as though the already bad situation just kept getting worse. However, I quickly realized one thing -- everyone was safe.
My mom, my brother and I were all unharmed.
I'm thankful the firefighters responded quickly and possibly saved my brother, who was still standing inside the house filled with smoke when they arrived. There's no telling if my brother would have left the house.
The cause of the fire, which started in the kitchen, was not immediately determined by the fire department, but it appears accidental in nature.
I'm thankful for opportunity to see tomorrow.
And I'm thankful for all those who have texted, called or e-mailed me during this tough time.
I've covered a lot of fires, but being a victim of one is truly devastating.
I'm just thankful it wasn't worse.
I've been told this many times today: Things can be replaced, but people can't. For that, I am thankful.
Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone and be thankful for what you have today because it could all be gone tomorrow.
Peace and love.
M. Feenz





The winner is Rihanna. No surprise. She's been dominant and apparently this year the winners are voted by the fans. And I must add Rihanna looked amazing. (See pics above)
The second award -- for best male pop/rock -- was presented by Paris Hilton and T-Pain. The nominees: Chris Brown, Kid Rock and Usher (who? Usher Raymond? who? lol).
Chris Breezy wins his first American Music Award and it was definitely well-deserved. This guy is new Michael Jackson. He's going to be around for quite awhile. Let's just hope he stays away from the skin cream, plastic surgery and little boys!
Kanye West picked up his first American Music Award. No temper tantrum this year [Jimmy Kimmel joked about this earlier]. Kanye didn't thank fans or industry executives, instead he decided to give a quick speech about the music industry. He mentioned the up and coming artists and how the industry is changing. He concluded by talking about how people are told they can't be who they want to be. Kanye disagreed and said, "I want to be Elvis" and walked off. Another Kanye moment. Nice job.
Christina Aguilera got the AMA's started. She performed a medley of her hits. You name it, she did it. She closed out of her performance with "Survivor." As I watched her, I couldn't help but think -- she's grown now. She doesn't look the same, obviously she gained some weight, but that's expected since she just had a baby. Overall, decent performance but I could have used someone else to start off the show. [note: she did MUCH better than Brittney Spears when she returned]
Pink performed "Sober." I never heard this before. But nice vocal performance. Pink has come a LONNNG way. She transformed quite a bit. I like her.
Alicia Keys wins for best pop/rock album. She beat out Coldplay and the Eagles. A-Keys looked great. (see pic above) "As I Am" was a great album, although I think her debut album "Songs In A Minor" was her best work. She deserved to win.
She performs "I Stay in Love." She's helped down a few steps by Nick Cannon, her new husband. [whatta joke] Let's cue the left-hand. Those who know Mariah Carey know that she'll use that hand throughout this performance and she does not disappoint. Nice vocal performance, I couldn't tell if she was lip-syncing or not. She held on to her "special bling-bling microphone" and appeared to hit those notes. Nothing spectacular about this.
The highlight -- or joke of the performance -- was Nick Cannon helping her and kissing her hand. He looked like a servant or something. Pretty amusing.
He wrote the song "Single Ladies" and she performed it. No flashy set or anything to take the attention off Beyonce and her two dancers. The performance was nearly identical to the video. The dance routine the same. They even had the ramp for the trio to run up [if you've seen the video, you know what I'm talking about].
The dancers were a little distracting to me...especially the blonde girl. She just looked awkward. Maybe it was just me. I don't know. Great performance.
Beyonce [or Beyonce-Z as Jimmy Kimmel referred to her earlier] held up her pony-tail at the end. Not sure what that was supposed to mean.
It's a slow song. I would have perferred the uptempo "Disturbia," but I guess she's performed that too much. Overall, this performance was nothing to brag about. C'mon Rihanna, let's give the people something to talk about!! Maybe next time perform with Chris Brown or something.
THE WINNER: CHRIS BROWN!! Wow. A big win for the kid from a small town in Virginia. Barack is president, C-Breezy is artist of the year. Proof that you can do anything you set your mind to. I'm sure five years ago Chris Brown would have NEVER imagined he'd achieve this. See what a difference a few years can make. He accepted his award in absolute shock. (I also should point out he was sitting next to his girlfriend Rihanna all night. Both were big winners tonight.)
The other surprise was opera singer, Kathleen Battle, who joined Latifah and A-Keys. It was a nice way to close out the show.

Aaron Ross, of the New York Giants, sat court-side with an unknown woman. Clearly, it wasn't his finance' and Olympic track star Sanya Richards. Ross, wearing a purple jacket, didn't shy away from fans. He signed autographs and took a pictures. A real class act.
If you don't know who she is, you're probably not alone. It didn't seem as though anyone recognized Taylor, who is signed to Pharell Williams' label, Star Trek Entertainment. Perhaps if you want to know more about her, you can just google her. Her first single released earlier this year was entitled, "Google Me." She reached a large audience when she was featured on MTV's Sweet Sixteen.
In other non-sports related news, R&B singer Donnie Klang kicked off the night with his rendition of the National Anthem. He returned at halftime to perform his single, "Take You There." It was a pretty lame performance, to say the least. Good thing he had two dancers to take your attention off of his singing. There was probably one fan screaming at the top of her lungs for Donnie, but for the most part the crowd was dead.
Klang, signed to P. Diddy's Bad Boy label, is most known for his role on MTV's Making the Band 4. Klang has struggled to see the same success as labelmates Danity Kane and Day 26, whose albums both debuted at the top of the charts. Klang's debut album, "Just a Rolling Stone," debuted at #19 on Billboard 200.




